15

stars are so underated
nobody has the time
to stop their pace for while
and look up
stare at the night sky for a moment
it takes a while for you to see it
for at first it's kinda blurry
and once your eyesight is on focus
you won't believe how enchanting it feels
somewhat relaxing
yet breath taking
like shimmer of glitter across the sky
diamonds afloat up high above us
a mini fire explosion erupted in between the clouds
it's extraordinary
how beautiful things are around us
but we are blind to see it
because we're too caught up with ugly things that don't matter.

14

Can you hear me
no, can you hear me?
not hear from them
and give me a chance to explain
my side of the story
so you could understand
at least, try to understand
but instead you shut me out
and I am left stranded like a stray dog
whimpering for your attention
because that's the thing
I am like a stray dog
the kind that passes you by
and you won't look at it
because it's worthless.

13

I promised myself to let go
but I feel the burden of my past
and little things haunt me
everytime I stumble across to them
like a particular scent of a cheap branded perfume
an old school Ed Sheeran song played from my playlist
reminded me the year when i was 15
reminded me of you
and the things we've been through
and I promised myself
please don't cry this is so stupid
but what's not to cry
when you loose something
more precious than a memory?

a friend.

12

i dread those days
where we used to talk
whilst leaning against a chalky wall
where i knew what you were thinking
from the emotions of your eyes

your jokes that took me a minute to get
your awkward looking laugh that i adored
your weird insecurities which i try to help you with

i miss those days
365 days to be exact
when you were a nobody
but i saw the somebody in you

i miss our deep conversations,
i miss listening to your problems,
i miss being your friend.

11

we think we can change people

but people change

into the people they surround themselves with

10

when people need you

they are kind to you

and make empty promises

then stab you

and pretend like you have never been associated

 people are just mean,

they claim they are good

but their insides are dirtier

than the words they say.

09

perfection;

is being happy with the flaws that you see,

accepting it like another human being.

08

I feel my heart being restless

it needs sleep

but my eyes wont shut

wide awake

as if I took caffeine shots

and a dose of amphetamine

funny,

I don't drink coffee

or do drugs

but I'm a thug like that

say things that don't make sense

but it's 3 am

I guess I'm talking crazy

not as crazy as Harley Quinn though

maybe it's a side affect 

a restless heart can lead you to restless thoughts

I think it's better now

 if I go to bed.

07

i want someone to come up to me and say "hey, you look nice today. i don't know you but i like how you look today even though i haven't seen you from yesterday, but i'm sure you were as lovely as today"

06

joy, glee, bliss, laughter, delight

fancy words for happiness

each one of them is different somehow

grief, misery, sorrow, heartache

other words for sadness

and yet,

you can't tell each one apart,

they're all the same. 

05

Emptiness is a real feeling

Emptiness is when you had everything

and one day you wake up to nothing

A life you lived with high hopes

and now it comes crashing down

dreams shredded into million bits of pieces

and it will take more than a lifetime

 to glue them back together

it's hopeless

it's useless

it's pointless

emptiness; it's a real feeling,

it's a void that hurts without visible pain.

04

Little company 

a cup of hot tea would be nice

two cubes of sugar

a cracker by the side

and a little company would be nice too

over a cup of hot tea

but his would be coffee

no sugar

two crackers instead of one

a story to be told

opinions to be shared

on a windy day

where my hair will get into my face

and he'd laugh
but then he leans in

and helps me to get it out of my face.

03

Matter

Yes, she's pretty

her eyes are wide and her lips are plump

her skin is fair and her hair falls effortlessly off her chest

Yes , she's talented

she can calculate things off her head

sing melodies to a song which makes you crave for more

Yes, she's feisty

never once have she ever loose in an argument

she makes sure that she's right,

                               she's always right, don't bother trying to push her buttons

No, she's not pretty

she tells that to herself

the other day she has a pimple

and scars across her cheeks

No, she's not confident

she shy to show herself 

she's afraid to be judged and critized

No, she's not happy

her words are spoken

but only a few can be heard,

                             nobody cares to listen, they're always too busy

02

just a day

where adult responsibilities are forgotten

not smiling doesn't mean i am sad

my favourite books come to life

harry potter is having dinner with me

when i'm done i'll close the book

save the best part for last

and laughing doesn't have to be because i read something funny

maybe i just want to laugh for no apparent reason

until asthma kicks in

but its okay, i have an inhaler in my back pocket

so don't worry

i'll still live

and i'll sleep through the day

party all night long

have banquets of all sorts of pizzas

round pizza, square pizza, any poligon pizza

all my friends will be there

to taste the delicacy with me

until our stomachs cover our feet

and we waddle to the toilet bowl

vomit out unicorns and rainbow

harry potter jumps out from his book again

i'd tell him to get back in

but he stays and witness our vomit parade

wouldn't that be a fascinating sight?

oh just a day. i only ask for a day.

01

Sympathy

because i lack,

i am considered weak,

when i prove them wrong,

do they care? no.

in their minds,

"i will always be better,

greater"

in their eyes,

they still see me as weak,

even if i did prove them wrong,

ego always take over.

it's alright, i will give them my sympathy

no actions, no words; will ever change them.