i close my eyes
hoping for it to shut tight
and my brain to shut up
it keeps talking to me
and i am having conversations
without the need to open my mouth.
my heart aches
it feels heavy
and i am tired
of being tired
and continue to be tired
when ironically
i am currently resting.
You can't always think that everything will go your way,
you can't always assume something
and expect it to be that way,
there are turns and loops
and bullets shooting
you're just unaware of it until you get shot.
You can't always have happiness
because then you'll never experience the bitterness of life
and you'll never have something to learn from.
But you can't always be sad,
you can't always be blaming others,
you can't always be dependant,
you can't always live a life in fear.
People close to you will eventually leave,
you'll eventually have to do things alone,
you'll eventually have to deal with it like it's nobody else's business.
and all it is because you can't always trust the people around you.
you got to start believing in yourself.
You got to start standing on your own.
I would like to be your friend,
I would love to laugh along with you,
I hope you would too,
because I can get annoying,
and my laugh is like a variable,
it goes from a roller coaster to a terminated life line,
and when I'm excited to share a story,
my tone goes high pitch,
like really high pitch,
and my words won't be perfect,
my speech is messed up,
but I hope you'll enjoy them,
as I enjoy sharing them with you,
actually, I would love to be your friend,
and I would adore to laugh like a snorting pig with you.